人生之上下

我错了吗？

2010-04-04T05:20:00.000-07:00

为什么

我错了吗

很累啊

好既然这样

等

2010-01-18T07:16:00.000-08:00

等
~

还在等
~

一番“心”意

2009-12-01T16:03:00.000-08:00

一份惊喜一份失望

在这里也很孤独的嘛

就以为一天一天很快过

纳闷的 ‘心’ 情能谅解吗？

伸长颈项盼望那天回家去

日夜连连得盼望见到你

是否取代了这里的寒冷

那支手表所给予的温暖

已经让我感到温馨与甜蜜

功课堆的烦恼已换成积极

这一番 ‘爱’ 意，你收到了吗？

一个神疲力尽的 ‘我想念你’

2009-11-17T16:47:00.000-08:00

好好笑
我又做错了吗？
以为一个甜蜜的早晨简讯，会令你开心，我就开心
谁知
已非常非常非常非常非常非常久没听你那一句‘我想念你’，如今只是一个小要求就令你大发雷霆
我还得怎么样
你埋怨，我也在那里听，支持你，与你度过，做了些表现，好让你安心，有安全感
夜深，想睡了，想到你，想听你一句‘我想念你’，却成了吵架
我也是人啊，付出也要有稍微回报，更何况只是一句‘我想念你’罢了吗，有错吗？
现在，坦白对我说吧，你与我在一起，是否感到很辛苦呢？一段感情是否不及你所要的成功与幸运呢

我坦白对你说，我真的对这些，感到，非常累了，我没体谅你吗？我没低下头吗？

还是，你觉得我要些什么，对你是个不重要的东西

越近越远

2009-09-10T09:15:00.000-07:00

近慢慢的接近
远慢慢的疏远
心情复杂缭乱无方向耐人寻味

17号要到了期待又舍不得
近期发生了许多事
坏多于好事
唉只能感叹不能做些什么无能为力让命运使唤

喜悦的事不能分享烦恼的事不能问候压抑着能释放吗？

要到了但又要走了
莫非17号之前真的不会再见你了吗？

忍不再

2009-08-22T09:31:00.000-07:00

忍
还能忍吗
你们还要我忍多久
一次又一次
不是延迟就是忘记
不守信用我还能在你们那里求学吗
剩下一个月罢了轻轻松松地让我享受不可以吗

烦
还需要多久
真的为什么是我
我做错了吗
我得罪你们了吗
对不起对你们的兴趣已没那么.......

谁啊
了解我嘛
我需要你啊

一切盡在不言中

2009-05-16T04:02:00.000-07:00

好多话想说哦

但有些人偏偏就是活在一个

一切盡在不言中的生活

不是单单这么容易就可以说出来

而是要人，时，地那么恰好的配合

才能完完整整地说出来

要不说漏了，意思都不同了

所以说嘛，真的不容易啊

真的很想写在部落格里

但就是很难以字形容出的

适当的时间是可以找的

恰当的地点也可以安排的

就是人是最难配合的

当然我希望那个人

就是‘你’了

难吧。。。哈哈

所以咯

一切只好

盡在不言中

赢家还是赢家

2009-05-13T04:32:00.000-07:00

输了

能怎么样

赢家做主吗

都没了权力

只好算了吧

是不是

这是

我的第一次

Today is Today

2009-04-17T03:26:00.000-07:00

today is today

live it to the fullest

it is best not to think about

tomorrow

yesterday

because you are in today

you wake up today

you sleep on today

basically

you ARE in TODAY

why add a -YESTER- to your DAY

why change your DAY to TOMORROW

act Today

think Today

feel Today

always~~~~~~~

Today is the most important DAY of everyDAY

麻

2009-04-11T10:16:00.000-07:00

对这几个月

已麻木了

没期待

伸长颈

渐渐僵硬

没知觉

对所有事

没那么兴趣了

淡

而无味

黑白放映

无姿无彩

忽冷忽热

我。。

不了

新的一年

2009-01-01T19:03:00.000-08:00

新的一年

重新开始

希望希望

怕了

2009-01-01T04:03:00.000-08:00

我.... 逐渐对这间家，怕了....
我.... 对我的房间，产生了恐惧感...
我.... 不想回到那里，不想睡....
我.... 变了...

浪漫与现实？？

2008-12-31T00:31:00.000-08:00

浪漫---现实，根本就是在唱反调吗....
哈哈哈!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
我已等了八天，第八天，2008的最后一天，我很想早点看到你，几乎想跑到机场去接你，但在我的能力外，所以我希望能去接你，然后约会，倒数庆祝...
你累，或许不想见...我真的失望，你说我不体谅，自私...我更摸不着头脑.....好，别讲这，那，我去载你，想早点看见你，你有事做，我等你...你却说不用，之后才来....这，这是什么意识呢？不浪漫吗？
哈哈哈!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
你教我吧，怎么不要那么浪漫吧，那么体贴吧...教我吧！

心领了啦，准备了的礼物，不知要怎么给你.....

惊心胆跳

2008-12-30T04:06:00.000-08:00

她已三天没消息了.... 她去了土耳其...
这几天，中东，以色列那里发生了混乱，不知会不会影响到她的地区....
宝贝，请回我....
我好担心 =‘（

她西-我东：第七夜

2008-12-29T18:22:00.000-08:00

第七夜，我没写, 今天已是第八天..... 因为真的有点失望。
没消息，又要到年尾了，心情非常的复杂与不愉快....
我真的不能那么坚强等待，没音讯真的打击非常大....你要怎么面对呢？
十二月三十日....孤单地等待，待在无聊的家，望着从没停过的钟....

耐性点吧!

自我坦诚表白/self-confession

2008-12-29T04:00:00.000-08:00

these few days are really... BORING!! She isnt around, thats bad already but without sports its really sucks more... i didnt intend to use thw word 'sucks' but it is the truth... i really prefer having classes everyday, at least, keep my mind out from thinking nonsense and dreamy..

so i thought alot during these days, mainly bout my relationship, or shall i say relationship between guys and girls.. firstly, i admit im a over-dependant on love-guy.. i have nothing to be ashamed of as my background wasnt too nice or normal compared to others.. at the age of 7 and 8, where all kids are so happily prepare for their new entry into the life of school with their parents around, prepare their breakfast, tidy them up, fetch them to school, kiss goodbye, hugs, fetch them back from school, share their stories in school, put them back on bed and prepare for another day.. do these sound normal to all of u? of course! u all have been thru these! but not me, so it does mean ALOT to me..

however, i dun like it now, even since i were back with my parents at the age of 9 onwards.. okok i havent explained.. when i was 7, i hav to come back to msia to start my primary as my parents and sister had to stay in China, dad's work purpose.. so i was with my grandparents.. not like i hate staying with my grandparents, but its the feeling u noe, when in class, recess, u hav brothers playing with u, so close, so buddy, but the last bell rang, everyone parted away from u, jumped into their parents' hugs, where i was alone looking at those scences, how do u feel? ur heart will be squeezed till u feel so sour! but meantime u wan to hold back the tears, coz i wan to be tough!

i have kept these feeling for 11 years until now, i decided to write it down.. now, when i finally found a girl who loves me, and i love her, i depend on her love alot.. dat is why love to me is so important, but funny, not my family love dat i endure more, but the girl i love now, the most certain future family (hopefully) i will have, is the love i most wanted to have and keep it forever.. these tag along well with my horoscope, Cancer. a person who always put love at first priority. why i say this? becoz i really wan to be honest to myself dat i really need pure clean love. and it is also owes myself an explanation..

i can give 101% effort into this relationship, dat is why sometimes i hope for at least a 50% return.. i noe i noe, love cannot ask for returns, but.. if someone always gives, but no return, will he be balance? i noe, this has alot of arguing points but i just want to say, to point out, becoz im a over-dependant on love-guy, i can give all out from myself into this relationship, meantime i also really hope for a more returns, becoz i want to feel more the love, more caring, more understanding returns.. however, im still growing, mentally to be exact... i made mistakes to point out my desires in a wrong way, i hope i'll be better from time to time, but i also hope the other side will do her part too..

this leads to question, why couples choose to break-up instead of solving problems.. ok, when you say we are not match la, not meant for each other, but why cant solve it together, coz the relationship has already started.. i experienced almost breaking-up, but lasted for 20mins i cant take it as i love her so much, the memories are just so unwipeable.. hahaha, i laughed at myself, how can i ever break-up.. i cant control things la anyway, but from wat i heard, when either side has no feeling for the other side, dat is cannot be saved anymore, ouch! really really sad.. wat can i say more?

okok, its really long... i feel better writing down.. but it just took up 20mins only.. boring, boring..

i miss her so so so much

bao bei..

i love you so so so much

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

她西-我东：第六夜

2008-12-28T07:58:00.000-08:00

第六天，第六夜

我天天夜夜地盼

不知自己已深深

陷入寂寞边界那

我还能怎样

只能等待

闷~~

本来要约朋友去运动

一个工作，一个没空，一个父母不准，一个不知道

唉，星期天就酱过了

别提了啦，晚安吧。

Titanic

2008-12-27T08:16:00.000-08:00

haha.. why o why? this time!!

i couldnt sleep after i wrote the previous blog, so i on the tv and started playing with the controller.. channel by channel, boring boring and boring.. aha! Transformers again! wat the?! 5th time i saw it on HBO! how many times they wana show it? its not like we havent watched it, furthermore it isnt dat great since watched it for the very 1st time(goes along with every single movie =P)..

ok, wats after HBO? Cinemax.. nope, wat Thunder thingy, not interested.. next, Starmovie.. and it was Titanic.. it didnt caught my interest at the very first sight coz dis movie of course have been watched by many of us a hundred times, right? but to keep me awake, so yap just watch lo.. no harm right?

but =S it turned out to be 'harmful'................... so romantic! so sad! so.. i duno! why at this time!!! as i mentioned earlier on, why at this time!? oh god! first, i miss my dear so so so so much!

You Jump, I Jump!

oh come on! darling, i miss you so much.. want to watch it with you, cry with you, laugh with you, sweet with you..

2ndly, sadness.............................

haih... i dun want to separate with you! and now we are apart! East and West! sob sob...

okok, i shall be sleeping, just forget wat i had just watched.. good night darling. goodbye Titanic.

她西-我东：第五夜

2008-12-27T06:25:00.000-08:00

今天，只有这几个字可形容：

闷

孤单

寂寞

失望

低潮

唉

晚安。

她西-我东：第五天

2008-12-26T21:09:00.000-08:00

奇怪吧，我会在白天向你谈天.....
但也没什么好谈啦...
只是，有点小失望罢了...
真的不知要做些什么，gym? 游泳？羽球？足球？但朋友们都不知忙些什么，约了但又不能...
唉，等吧...修炼耐性也好。哈哈。

到此。

她西-我东：第四夜

2008-12-26T08:48:00.000-08:00

哇.... 27了耶，哈哈，一个星期就要那么地过去了。
现在要到一时了，周围显得特别平静，唯一可以听到的是，我对她的思念。
今天也没什么，无聊的一天也就那么地过去.... 假期哦，唉我又能怎样?
当我在写时，头不时地望着日历，似乎自动的，看看哪一天我还没打勾勾...
天啊，时间突然很慢啊！哈哈，醒醒！那我又怎么睡呢？我巅了是吧？
好了啦，不要闹了...今天就到这吧...

宝贝，我好想念你。我爱你。

晚安。

她西-我东：第三夜

2008-12-25T07:58:00.000-08:00

已是第三夜了，还有多少个夜需要我等待呢？
纳闷....也倒不过的了.....
这三天，我真的深深体会寂寞这两个字的每一个笔画表达的深奥意思。
你们可以问我，才八天罢了吗？COME ON! 哈哈，对不起我就是太想念她了。
宝贝，很抱歉，这三天我似乎睡得没那么好，我不是要让你担心，但我要坦白于你和我的身体。
今天，我毫无方向目的地的驾驶，左手仿佛没了自觉，你知道为什么的宝贝嘻嘻。过后，还不是回到了家，继续探险寂寞两个字。
夜深了，感觉更加复杂..... 唉，戴建漳啊，我时常告诉自己，为什么那么那么脆弱呢？把爱看的那么重吗？
哈哈，能怪我吗？但，我也会理智，学业我还照常努力，因为我俩都有同样的目标！

好吧，十二时已过了，圣诞也过了，就这样...

等待第四夜吧，宝贝，我爱你，晚安。

她西-我东：第二夜

2008-12-24T09:23:00.000-08:00

圣诞节了，已是一时许。
圣诞歌在耳朵旁，朋友的祝福与庆祝，心情却不完美，因为............
没有她在，身旁
不知要写些什么，只是很很很想念她................
西边的你，圣诞快乐！你的礼物就是我最佳的爱与思念。

小心哦宝贝，
我爱你

亲 =3

第二夜，亲爱的，晚安。

她西-我东：第一夜

2008-12-23T14:32:00.000-08:00

现在是凌晨六许，我刚有了可怕的梦。惊醒后无法入睡，便向博格讲述心情。
她，刚从Istanbul，就是Turkey的首都传了个简讯，我好开心哦！很想向她讲我有了噩梦，但又不想她在行程里担心，所以博格啊，辛苦你了。
她在那里应该是一点多凌晨吧，应该是要到酒店睡觉觉哦。好想念你宝贝!
今晚就是平安夜了，christmas eve，唉，没有她的抱抱，感觉好冷哦 =‘（
好了啦，她也希望我睡了。我也希望她有个平安的旅程，开开心心的。

宝贝，我爱你。
晚安。

东-西两地分开

2008-12-22T19:08:00.000-08:00

这圣诞显得冷淡

冷淡回绕这八天

八天空虚的心情

心情只有自己知

~~~~~~~~~~~

我知道我是位男人

为何有颗那么脆弱的心

坚强时常发挥不到

她，去了西边

我，留在东边

圣诞两地分开

虽然只是那八天

但，是我的致命伤

好吧，让我流一次泪

挥一挥别那脆弱的泪

坚强起来！

她，也希望我坚强

我爱你，宝贝

一路顺风

我等待你与我

一起

挥别2008，迎接2009

想念

心太软好还是坏

2008-12-11T06:10:00.000-08:00

天啊

你带我来到这世界

为何赐一颗心太软

为何耍我

为何给我时间不对

为何给我有希望后失望

你要我绝望是吗

你要我放弃是吗

为什么

我是那么好欺负吗

心太软了吧

好好好

我真的真的不要期待了

让我再流一次泪

擦干后

我不再我

那真实的我

已不在

光明何时再~~~

思念

2008-12-02T02:51:00.000-08:00

思念是一种病

无法抗拒的病

是不是一种病

看你有多爱她

~~~~~~~~~

雪

2008-11-05T18:37:00.000-08:00

唉，

看过了那些在英国朋友的‘脸书’与‘博格’后，

好羡慕哦！有点不想再上‘脸书’似的，因为只会让自己更加羡慕。

为何呢？

还要问！在国外念书，有哪些现代人是不愿意的？

独立，享受，体会。。。是多么让人期待的。。

雪！！！！哦麦过！我也会像他们一样jakun的！（是看过junxuen的‘博格’）

因为一身中，还从未看，碰，闻过雪！

唉，再讲也没用啦。。。

明年！等着瞧吧！

希望

2008-10-31T19:57:00.000-07:00

我希望

一切会顺顺利利

感情

学业

驾驶

人缘

运动

家庭

总而言之，加油吧！

我也要成功

2008-09-29T03:33:00.000-07:00

看到其他人可以顺利出国，得到奖学金

是多么令人羡慕啊

但为何羡慕呢？我也可以啊

还不迟的，最重要不要气馁

所以呢，在大学的课程里，我一定要努力了，专注，加油

不是要pass而已，而是向奖学金挑战

我已尝试失败了，这次只允许成功，不允许失败

注意吧！下次我会向blog您回馈我的成功，谢谢您的支持！

戴建漳！加油！

爱....我可以

2008-09-19T22:17:00.000-07:00

我

可

以

爱

矛盾

2008-09-19T21:58:00.000-07:00

告别blog 似乎一年了，现在让我唤醒你吧！

首先我想向她说对不起，不小心删去您所写的posts..很抱歉

矛盾....

爱情对我来说非常非常的重要，叫我如何放下呢？

最近又吵了，她的埋怨，她的悲观，她的固执...

我已经很努力的让她开心，乐观起来... 但就是没效....

人是有限度的，不能时时刻刻都迁就着，虽然你是多么的爱她，多么的心疼...

有时真的觉得很累....累....累....

心中的矛盾~~~放还是不放

说实在的，你要我怎么放呢？哎....

你知道我心中有多么的痛吗？你说假如我要分手，会对我好... 反义词啊....

该讲的都讲了... 一切顺利吧~~~

雨过天晴~~

2007-11-29T23:24:00.000-08:00

yahoooo！！！！！

没事了！！

雨过天晴~~~

太开心了！！

甜蜜~~~恩爱的~~~

我不会再犯错了~~~

听话的~~

嘻嘻~~

今天感觉很

温馨

真的不能像往前了吗?

2007-11-28T22:57:00.000-08:00

我真的很错了吗？

昨晚，我问她为何她对我这么冷淡

她的回答是：

“事情很难像已往的了。。。”

完了。。

我顿时呆了。。。

真的完了吗？

我不要！！！

我爱她

但是今天我感觉不到甜蜜和热情了。。

心好酸哦。。

今天真的很

冷

吵架~~

2007-11-28T00:50:00.000-08:00

怎样才算是吵架呢？

是不是意见不和就算？

或语气大了些就算？

我觉得这两个现象就算了~~~

最近我很烦，什么呢？家里的事。。。

脸色也很忧愁，令泽莹担心。。。

她尝试的让我开心，但她觉得她失败了因为我是看到别人开心，我便开心。。

她是希望她本身能够使我开心，我就说很难的。。

她烦，我也烦。。。

通电话时，我的语气大了些。。真的很想骂她。。

骂不出口，便盖了手机。。

过后，我内疚了，我真的很辛苦因为我对她凶，冷淡。。

打电话回给她，安心多了。。

所以，吵架真的不好，伤感情。。。

我

不

要

了

嘻嘻。。好多了 =）

1st movie date since we met

2007-11-09T05:30:00.000-08:00

after BEC meeting( unexpectedly ended early)

we went Midvalley for lunch...

omg!!! we spent 30mins juz to get a parking slot...

it really tested my patience...

luckily i hav tzer yng by my side...

she calmed me down...

she is the girl!!!

i reali cant imagine without having her by my side...

hehe...

when we reached the complex, same old question :" where to eat?"

haha...

we chose Nando's.. wow, hot peri-peri is HOT!!

she can tahan n i cant!! i sweated like after a football match..

halfway through.. we were deciding whether want a movie or not...

she called her mum, i called mine.. we both had approval.. and

yap!! BEE Movie at 4pm...

it was a nice show indeed!! learn more bout Bee.. kids, u shuld watch!!

no kissing kissing, hugging hugging.. parents, dun worry!!

5.30 the movie ended, n its time to go home..

i sent her back to her car in college's carpark..

den we both headed home..

and dats our friday, 9th Nov, 2nd day of 2nd month...

hehe...

sweet tzer yng..

love her...

1st month anniversary~~

2007-11-09T05:01:00.000-08:00

on the 7th November 2007 marked the
1st month of relationship between tzer yng n i...

it was a normal day, we had class...

she had only maths class n i had maths n accounting...

poor girl had to be alone while i was having accounting...

after my class i quickly went to her, we attended chem prac briefing...

after whole day of lectures, its the time we celebrate our special date...

we went Secret Recipe, shared SET C(if u knew wat is it)...

we chat bout 1 n a half hour bout our story...

when i started to go after her, how, why... lol...

till the very special date i finally confessed to her, held her hands...

and this is 7th November 2007

there more things, but i cant describe it all =)

it is all in my mind...

I Love Tzer Yng

我爱你

Her~~~

2007-11-02T21:40:00.001-07:00

tzer yng

sweet and lovely

should i say some more?

dates to be remembered~~~

2007-11-02T07:46:00.000-07:00

Dear Blog,

hehe... this post is mainly for important dates to be remembered..

2nd October 2007 8.00pm

3rd October 2007 10.05am

7th October 2007 whole day ~~~~~~~~~ MOST IMPORTANT!!!! 7-10-07

7th January every year whole day

12-16th October 2007 whole 5 long long days

the reason behind these dates is a Secret 不能说的秘密

the day before she isnt by my side

2007-10-12T20:28:00.001-07:00

chatting while waiting for bus... kean, yng and mei..

tzer yng-------kean chong

just miss her...
11/10/2007

Genting trip ^^ 2nd chapter

2007-07-04T21:16:00.000-07:00

Ria apartment... hmm y leh i had this unusual feeling.. oh, danny said sum1 died in this apartment b4.. amitofo amitofo.. hope our stay will b fine..

sigh, clement said we cant checked in le coz our booking was under d other group of frens' name.. so we had 2 wait till they arrvied.. in d meantime, we took sum sa sa de pics.. ^^

jun xuen n me--- posing =p

clement imitating himself being strangled.. 'his own hands'

we cant juz wait for them 2 arrive by wasting time juz taking pics oni rite?? so we decided 2 went up 2 first world hotel.. n there we took few pics again ^^

there r more pics but i hav 2 go driving d... upload later ^^

Genting trip ^^ 1st chapter

2007-07-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

tuesday 26th June.. i woke up at 6am, wondering y i woke up so early during holidays.. yap im preparing for d genting trip organized by clement..
so sleepy but i still forced myself up.. *yawn*.. i wore 3 layers.. siao rite? haha.. so hot, my dad fecthed me 2 kelana jaya lrt.. after saying goodbye, i met up danny alone waiting.. we waited for 15mins feeding mosquitoes wondering mana tu clement ar..
at last, my phone rang..
"helo? mana u??"
"malaysia lah.. haha.. meet where wei?"
"d restaurant opposite d station"
"wat?!" sigh, danny n i had 2 walked all d way back across 2 d shoplots opposite d station.. i carried 2 bags while danny 1.. wondered how on earth he squeezed all his clothes for 3 days in a begpack.. not luggage beg wor.. =p
we both watched clement n chee hoong had their breakfast- roti canai.. wah they carried alot of luggages with snacks n maggie mee in few.. we waited another 15mins den another member-jun xuen had showned up with 2 begs oso.. den we laughed at danny bout his oni beg.. haha..
we waited for d lrt 2 arrived in a long q.. ppl kept looking at us wondering wats wit our luggages.. mayb they jealous coz they have 2 work while we can go on a vacation.. hehe..
10mins later d lrt arrived, so we quickly got up, squeezed in.. ouch! phew.. we stood at d middle wit all our luggages taking up alot of spaces.. paiseh =/ i looked around.. counting 1,2,3,4.. eh shuld b 5 mah.. oh!!! chee hoong din got up d lrt.. wat?! den danny said he was letting other ppl in 1st.. aiyo chee hoong ar dis wasnt d rite time 2 b gentleman la.. sigh.. on d way 2 masjid jamek we made jokes on him.. saying he was letting pld folks up, den old folks were rich n 2 show a token of appreciation, they lent us their private helicopter fly up 2 genting.. sa sa de =p
when we reached masjid jamek, we met up wit another member-aloysius.. den we waited for chee hoong.. eh? not 2 long wor, we saw him d.. haha.. den we continued our journey took another link 2 reach titiwangsa.. on d way, passers kept looking at us oso.. understandable, 6 students wit alot of luggages walking on a busy streets in kl.. haha..
soon we reached titiwangssa n went 2 d bus station.. there we met up wit our last member-zhu lian.. he went there wit d easiest way la, his dad fetched him there!! lol.. we bought d 10am ticket n were on our way up 2 genting.. ^^
during d journey, i planned 2 take a nap but dun wan 2 waste any time wit my frens.. so we played cho da dee n games via bluetooth.. poor jun xuen, he was d 1 sending games 2 chee hoong n me but he was d 1 who cant play wit us.. hahaha.. sad rite?
without noticing we actually on d way up genting hill d.. no wonder my ears felt uneasy lo.. so malang!! when we almost there, d bus not functioning well.. jun xuen n i went 2 d driver n asked.. he said sum problems wit d batteries.. so d bus moved up veli slow.. zl decided 2 go asked again.. suddenly out of nowhere d bus can move d!! we were joking bot him holding 1 of d bars transfering energy 2 d bus.. d whole bus were in laughing mood.. haha.. actually its no laughing matter, when he let go n came back 2 sit, d bus cant move d.. funny onot? we asked him 2 hold it again but he malu n dun wan.. haha..
soon there was another bus arrived n helped 2 fetch us up.. n so we arrived at Ria apartment ^^

Happie Birthday 17 =)

2007-06-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

JUNE!! its a month wit different babies were born... around me, there r few which r close 2 me..

Wong Sun Mei-17

she is a gemini girl.. June 18th baby.. has a cheerful personality, prefer alot of frens around her..

veli good in socialising.. even strangers oso can suddenly attracted 2 her n tok.. agree dat shes easy 2 tok 2 n share problems wit.. how i met her? kk.. we were actually classmates during form3 but i couldnt recalled shes in d same class as me lor.. funny eh? so it was form4.. different classes d.. i met her thru zhu lian when he introduced me 2 his librian frens.. n plus we were in same chinese class.. so everything started frm there.. tok n tok n slowly became closer lo.. i remembered she lent me her ears n spent time wit me when i was in club med during holidays on JUNE 06, although juz thru sms-es but dats way enuf d.. haha..

slowly i noe dat this girl can reali share my problems in life.. so anything im facing difficulties i'll consult her 1st.. both of us have d same ambition becoming a psychologist.. n i think she can b 1, a great 1.. mayb child psychlogist will b best for her coz she loves kids alot though she always bullies them =P she daei oso wan, sumtimes reali cant tahan but its 1 of her unique sides la.. haha..

so this is Wong Sun Mei whom i noe, there r actually more bout her but think this is d summary of her la, is she d same as wat u all think of her? lol...

sun mei n me in merry-go-round

weng khye......sun mei.......kean

sun mei's birthday on 18th June which was on monday, mine 22nd which was on friday same as chae yin n weng khye's on 21st June on thursday.. d party held on d middle of d week which was on 20th June on wednesday.. =)

chae yin n me---- same birthday=)

2nd day

2007-06-10T20:35:00.000-07:00

d 2nd day was more familiar wit d places n faces around, so there was less tension than d 1st day.. hehe...
it was d same process be4 the exams started.. we had Mathematical test 1st followed by English test...
d Math test was ok... but sum reali difficult.. sigh.. dun care la, take it as an experience.. lol.. "self-comforting"...
den we had English Test.. it had 2 parts.. d 1st was given a passage n question asked.. d 2nd part was short essay writing...
d clock running from 1.15 to 6.15.. n there ASEAN Scholarship Test 2008 has ended!!!

my feedback bout it :
basicly its a good experience for me lo.. got a chance 2 involved in d test which can reali measure where is my level... if i reali got a chance 2 study in Singapore, i think i'll take it.. 1st its my parents' hope, 2nd its a new experience n i can expose my-self to wider parts of the world..

so there goes my 1st Sunday of the holidays...

early June

2007-06-10T19:30:00.000-07:00

i shall say its a exam month le June 2 me though its my birthday month.. hmm..
i had finished my 1st term exams in college when i can totally let myself off!! BUT... wait ya.. i hav question : y life must have BUT appear leh? haih.. ok back 2 the sentence.. just after the last paper on wed 6th June, 9th and 10th June i had ASEAN Scholarship Test.. siao rite?? BUT.. c BUT again.. haha.. BUT its a good BUT.. hehe..
ASEAN Scholarship 2008-------- actually i din really hope 2 get it oso coz studying in Singapore leh?? u hav live in a community of kiasuness, 'real' nerds surrounding... i m not doubting whether i can cope wit the life there, its juz.. If.. If k? i so lucky n got it, wat do u think will happen? i hav 2 leave everything here in MALAYSIA!! family, friends, football.. sigh, i dun wan!!
ok ok, 9th June--- when i reached there, i asked my mum its ok 2 leave me n i'll wait myself for it 2 start.. but my insisted 2 follow me there coz she wanted ppl around 2 envy her coz her son got d test.. woohoo.. dats wat she thinks k? not me.. pls.. hehe =P sorry mum!! wat we saw was d same my mum thought in her mind.. other applicants who got oso accompanied by their parents.. sum wit grandparents sumore.. @.@ sai mm sai ar(cantonese) its juz a test after all.. not even interview leh.. haha.. sum even wore long sleeves office-type outfit there leh.. i reali pui fuk them lor.. hehe.. 'being sarcastic'.. 1st thing 1st i viewed around.. ohya, did i told u all bout d venue? its Garden International School at Mont Kiara.. wow!! dats a nice school man, i like d field!! football again.. hehe.. my mum warned me :" eh, dun forget ur 'ahem' k? ur L-U-N-G.." mum!! plse lar lo, im fine d k? sigh.. it has swimming pool oso!! cool wei.. i was looking for familiar faces.. searching...................... dit-dit-dit-dit, familiar face spotted( robotic voice) hehe.. Stefanie Ng, age 18, from HELP, relationship: classmates.. haha.. yap, i saw stef there.. which happened same during JPA.. lol.. she had her own frens.. haih, which means im alone.. lol.. its ok, im used 2 it..
"ok ppl!! plse register ur name here n we shall move in2 the basketball court!!" shouted a lady whom i think was incharged..
"encik, Tai.. ada tak? T-A-I.. ada?" my mum was more excited than me @.@
"Tan? tak ada ma'am.. T-A..." i believed that officer is in his retiring period.. hehe..
"mana boleh encik.. nah!!! T-A-I.. Tai Kean Chong.." my mum was kinda furious.. i quickly calm her down n signed..
"ok den, all d best k? i'll b here around 3.30 2 pick u up.. bye" aww.. i was touched.. sob sob..
haha.. ok moving on, i followed d rest in2 d court.. divided in2 different group, n i was in class 20.. after everthing was settled.. we were den moved in2 d sports hall.. d 1st thought came in2 my mind when i stepped in2 d hall was High School Musical.. "wildcats sing along.. lalalala..." haha.. yap d hall looked 70% alike d one in d movie.. lol.. except there were chairs n tables which r for us.. found a suitable n satisfied place n sat there waiting... there goes d briefing bout education in Singapore.. actually studying in Singapore is not dat bad.. hehe.. it does slightly changed my mind.. hehe..
bla bla bla.. after dat.. we were than moved in2 classrooms 2 do our General Ability Test.. wah, d classroom is nice man.. lol.. a set of com on d teacher's desk, speakers hanging on d ceiling.. cool...
d test was 2 test ur analytical, reasoning skills.. its like solving puzzles.. they hav an empty box of a diagram n asked u 2 find d appropriate one 2 fit in.. d 1st 15 was ok.. but d other half r getting tougher.. i cant finished all.. haih.. dats what others said oso, so i was reali relieved.. hehe
so 1st day was over.. there goes my 1st Saturday holiday..

甜之日

2007-05-27T20:26:00.000-07:00

挂在墙上的时钟，把大小手都指着六。。。

阿张望一望，是星期日勒为什么六点半就要起床呢？原来得上undang seminar咯。。。

硬撑的，他辛苦地。。慢慢地。。总于。。把那懒散的身体给推下床。。其实，是有一样事情他期待要做的。。call 阿玫醒。。

“她要我几点叫她醒呢” 阿张一边刷牙一边想。。

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

听了一个半小时，阿张已没心听那闷透又lame的讲师了。。脑里只想：“她醒了没呢？”
矛盾的他，send 了简讯给阿玫。。

yes!! 总于，breaktime！！阿张立刻跑到礼堂外，拿出了手机打给了阿玫。。

“嘟嘟。。。。。。。。。”
“。。。。。”
“喂？阿玫啊？起床咯。。。”
“。。。hmmm（刚被叫醒的声音）。。。。”
“不是要早起然后温习的吗？”
“。。。。很累勒。。。”
“哎哟哟。。几点了喔。。”
“。。hmm。。你的seminar完了啊？”
“就不是呢。。还有一个小时半咯。。很闷啊！！讲师够闷和lame咯。。”
“hehe。。跟你一样咯。。”
“才不是呢。。我更lame咯。。hehe。。”
“傻傻的。。hehe。。”
“醒了啦。。快快。。”
“。。再睡多一下子。。”
“好啦。。那我别捣乱你了啦。。拜拜。。”
“拜拜。。”

手机一关上，阿张的嘴边突然露出微笑。。是多么的甜啊。。连吸入的空气突然也变得香甜。。
“如果每天都能打电话叫阿玫醒的话，那我的日子不是变得甜甜了吗？”阿张心里偷偷微笑地问自己。。

“阿玫啊。。你让我的日子过得更温馨呢。。很想还没挂上电话时，跟你说。。。。。。。。。。我想念你。。”

<跑吧，孩子---Homerun>

2007-04-21T00:51:00.000-07:00

大家请注意，虽然这套戏已过了很久，但假如你们肯拿出你们的心再看多一遍的话，戏里的点点滴滴从戏头到戏尾，都会让你感受到真情流露，悲喜交加，好笑，有人生教导的意义。。是一部不可错过的好电影。。
所以，让我们也跟戏里面的孩子们一起—————— 跑吧！！！

this is a totally nice movie to watch... if u dun understand chinese, oh oh never mind... juz watch it wit ur heart, ur feeling.. n u will understand it.. =) let us run together!!!

this little boy will be running with me =)

< i vs illness >

2007-04-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

basicly... i lazy 2 rewrite again.. its d same as d chinese version.. its bout my rashes...
its reali torturing lo... veli itchy n alot of things which u cant do le... cant go college.. cant eat nice food.. cant play football.. haihz...
but wat to do, y am i so weak wor? i wan 2 b healthy n i tried.. but sumtimes d evil illness juz cant get off frm me lo... but all these while, there is a "she" who reali appear in my mind, helping me through all these obstacles...
should i juz tell her? wats holding me back? all these questions have been in my mind when i was sick... i was veli relax when i was sick, my mum asked me not 2 think of college, lan exams n stuffs.. so i cleared my mind n the only thing left is "she"...
i reali miss her... im reali in love... but its not a smooth wan.. but i'll try 2 make it smooth... juz need d perfect time n chance... =)
so is this bout my rashes?? nono... lol.. its mainly bout "she"...

< 我 vs 病魔 >

2007-04-20T07:14:00.000-07:00

星期二，平常的一天。。上学院，上课读书，放学。。由于妈忙，所以载不到我便再次搭上那遥远闷透的巴士。。在巴士上还好好的，但不知为何回到家，身体总觉得不舒服，还痒痒的喔。。初初我以为是因为流汗而导致此现象，但渐渐真的不自在便走到镜子前把衣服一脱。。哇！红斑点在向我招手！！这下可惨了，我中了风骚痒。。哎，怎么这么倒霉呢。。哇痒透了。。抓呀抓，还是这么痒喔。。妈！！救命呀！！
妈回来马上带我到中医师那里，医师给我抓两包药叫我回家喝了。。喝了我便立睡了。。哇真的很痒叻。。不能入睡，我尽量地闭上双眼但还是很痒！！很辛苦呢。。就那么地忍，不知不觉已深夜。。我又没开风扇，整间房静静的，时钟嘀哒嘀哒地在响，我的身体也在痒。。我几乎要向病魔投降了。。。。。=（
突然，脑海里飘出了“她”。。“她”叫我别放弃，“她”那温柔体贴的支持，“她”那撒娇的一面，“她”那活泼开朗的性格。。。真的，真的。。帮我度过那惨忍的夜晚，我的梦也只有“她”。。
当我张开双眼时，已是早晨了。。脑海里还在飘着“她”。。嘴边还露出了微微的笑容 =）我以为雨过天晴，过了一晚就没事了。。但，哎那病魔应该在吃醋吧，又找我麻烦了=（因为这样，星期三我就没上学院。。待在家敌抗病魔。。
到了傍晚间，妈再一次带我到中医师那里。。这次医师不知要玩什么把戏，啊！！我快要昏了，他要针灸！！完了。。哎。。针慢慢地向我的血脉插进。。啊！！无声的叫，只有我才能听见。。整身麻痹的，几乎没有了知觉，整身轻飘飘的。。在这痛苦的情景下，“她”再次地出现。。
“戴建漳，别放弃喔，加油！！”
立刻，我感觉好舒服喔。。整个人都清醒了=）身体里的热气全都排出来了。。
连续两天，虽然痛苦，但假如没有“她”的支持，我也不会那么坚持。。
为何只有“她”会出现在我脑海里呢？因为。。。
我时时刻刻都有想着“她”
“她”在我生活中真的非常重要
我不知“她”会怎么想，但我希望“她”会知道我是怎么想。。。。。

<完>

new post : < I vs illness > < 我 vs 病魔 > coming soon!!

2007-04-19T05:52:00.000-07:00

大家好！我最新的post就要出了请视目以待吧！
helo everyone!! my new post is coming out soon!! please wait for it!! =)

~kean~

~outside the window~ 窗外

2007-04-13T21:19:00.000-07:00

wats outside d window?

i wonder~~

everything looks small

and limited vision

sunlight

birds singing

washing machines sound

on~

off~

everything moves so quick

my mind, thinking

same pace

why~

everything is beyond my control

cant we apply d same way

as we control d tv channels we want

music player play pause stop

in life~~~

why~

haha~

haih, life is juz so~~

duno =)

fate~believe it or not

i dont know

haha~

how many more experience

awaiting for me

to let me 100%

believe it

haha~~

ops~

6.00pm already

journey to the park

so...

bye bye window

my best friend

see ya

will tell u my problem

next time =)

雨中思考

2007-04-09T01:46:00.001-07:00

滴答滴

天空在飘着雨

我无奈抬起头

一滴一滴的雨水

洒在我无望的脸

放弃精神上的支持

不想但无选择

谁能体谅我的雨天

缘分~~~人为

我真的不明白

原因在哪里

滴答答雨渐渐大到我看你不见

还要多久我才能看到晴天

放弃还是我最后被逼的选择

不知道我不知道

我真的不知怎么做

很累真的很累

希望在哪里

雨也渐渐停了

把最后的眼泪擦干

人生之上下

我错了吗？

等

一番“心”意

一个神疲力尽的 ‘我想念你’

越近越远

忍 不再

一切盡在不言中

赢家还是赢家

Today is Today

麻

新的一年

怕了

浪漫与现实？？

惊心胆跳

她西-我东：第七夜

自我坦诚表白/self-confession

她西-我东：第六夜

Titanic

她西-我东：第五夜

她西-我东：第五天

她西-我东：第四夜

她西-我东：第三夜

她西-我东：第二夜

她西-我东：第一夜

东-西 两地分开

心太软 好还是坏

思念

雪

希望

我也要成功

爱....我可以

矛盾

雨过天晴~~

真的不能像往前了吗?

吵架~~

1st movie date since we met

1st month anniversary~~

Her~~~

dates to be remembered~~~

the day before she isnt by my side

Genting trip ^^ 2nd chapter

Genting trip ^^ 1st chapter

Happie Birthday 17 =)

2nd day

early June

甜之日

<跑吧，孩子---Homerun>

< i vs illness >

< 我 vs 病魔 >

new post : < I vs illness > < 我 vs 病魔 > coming soon!!

~~~outside the window~~~ 窗外

雨中思考

忍不再

东-西两地分开

心太软好还是坏

~outside the window~ 窗外